Here I don't have to hide my Journal under my bed. I write. I sign off. I live. height: 5'7
sw: 156
cw: 124
bmi: 19.6
gw1: 120
gw2: 112
ugw: ?
Undefinable
For some reason, I weigh myself after I go to the bathroom
After every single time. I weighed myself every single day + after I go poop (once a week unless I have diarrhea).
I have an electronic scale. Every morning I strip naked and pee. I try to get as much pee out of my bladder as possible and it sometimes hurts because I’m trying so hard to pee…
Honestly I have so much adrenaline that I don’t know what to do with. I usually run or cut. It’s 11pm so I can’t run and I’m at a friends house so cutting is inconvenient…please help me.
I think that’s one reason I’m so ambivalent about recovery. Yeah it’s fucked up my education and shit but it hasn’t done any physical harm
